In a revealing documentary, filmed before she suffered her second miscarriage last November, Lily Allen opens up about how she was suffering from an eating disorder when her music career was at its peak.
The strain of being in the spotlight and all the pressures she felt to be and look a certain way, manifested itself in the self-destructive form of bulimia: “There was a point last summer (2009) where I had an eating disorder, I used to vomit after meals.
“It is not something I am proud of. But I tell you what, a lot of people used to come up to me and tell me how great I looked. And I was on the cover of every magazine with them saying, ‘Lily is looking amazing – look how much weight she has lost’. I thought I looked good.
“It was great to try on clothes and walk out of the shop feeling a million dollars. When you have been a victim of people saying the complete opposite, you want more of it. But I wasn’t happy, I really wasn’t. I would like to be the skinniest, mini-est person in the world, but I know I can’t do that without being unhappy. I like my food.”
The 25 year old has since officially retired from the music industry and together with her older sister Sarah, 30, has just recently launched a vintage clothes store, Lucy In Disguise, in London’s Covent Garden.
The musician turned clothing entrepeneur went on to say she has no desire to end up “mental” like Madonna, adding: “People who are famous and successful and live in this mad world tend to die really early, or kill themselves, or die in a drugs overdoes.”
“No offence but that is not what drives me. I want to get married and have kids and make sandwhiches cutting the crusts off.”
[adsense]Lily suffered a miscarriage after four months in 2008 when she was dating Ed Simons from the Chemical Brothers and again last year when she was six months pregnant with fiance Sam Cooper’s baby.
Miscarriage is a tragedy affecting one in four women, although the majority of women lose their baby in the first three months.
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