Gwyneth Paltrow on postpartum depression and feeling like a “zombie”

Mother-of-two Gwyneth Paltrow was steeped in guilt following the birth of her son Moses when she failed to bond with the tiny tot.

In a very frank interview for the February of Good Housekeeping, the actress said: “I felt like a zombie. I couldn’t access my heart. I couldn’t access my emotions. I couldn’t connect.”

This was in stark contrast to the experience she had after giving birth to her daughter Apple, two years previously: “It was terrible, it was the exact opposite of what had happened when Apple was born. With her, I was on cloud nine. I couldn’t believe it wasn’t the same. I just thought it meant I was a terrible mother and a terrible person.”

Despite the symptoms being there, it wasn’t until her husband Chris Martin pointed out that she might be suffering from postpartum depression that she started to understand what she was going through: “About four months into it, Chris came to me and said, ‘Something’s wrong. Something’s wrong,’ ” the 38-year-old actress said. “I kept saying, ‘No, no, I’m fine.’ But Chris identified it, and that sort of burst the bubble.”

“I thought postpartum depression meant you were sobbing every single day and incapable of looking after a child,” she added. “But there are different shades of it and depths of it, which is why I think it’s so important for women to talk about it. It was a trying time. I felt like a failure.”

Postpartum is more common than one thinks, and it is thought that as many as 80% of women may experience it in some form or another following pregnancy. Read more about the condition here.

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